The Mad Mermaid

So, after agonizing over that midterm and feeling that after two classes in ed leadership, I still don't understand what the professional standards mean by "Vision".... I got 100%. My husband was like, 'Aren't you happy?' In fact, I kind of wasn't (over it now). I feel like it was a big joke. That's how I felt about K-12 and my undergrad work, but my first M.S. was better. More practical and applicable. Oh well. I guess I have a gift for bullshit, which, my friend pointed out, is good for an administrator anyway.

Anyway, I caught up on some work last week but have some things coming due this week. Still annoyed by everyone I work with. My back has been really bothering me again. I called my chiropractor and asked if they'd work me in (they always do, even if you just show up at the office unannounced) and when she asked me how I was, I kind of had a hissy fit. I started going to her because I hurt my back, and it was really bad. Like, crawling on hands and knees because I couldn't walk bad. Then it was great, and I never had any trouble. But ever since I was pregnant last summer and then had the miscarriage, it's always hurting. Now, I don't have any idea of what that should be but I am TIRED OF IT. Which is basically what I stomped my feet and told her and she was very nice. I went several times last week and she says if we are more aggressive we should be able to get it under control. I hope to god that's true. I am worried that something bizarre and female-related is actually wrong with me, which isn't usually something I do.

I had a nice weekend. My husband's friend and I hatched a secret plan related to his birthday gift. PPJ spent the night at Grandma's and we had dinner when we picked her up. I was a bad person and bought a new town for TS3 so I played that some. Related to spending money, I got a (somewhat cheesy) but so far very good book about people who spend too much money and get into too much debt. PPJ and I just spent a lot of quality time doing Highlights Puzzle Books and listening to her classical playlist on Spotify. She actually fell asleep next to me, so I should probably try to go to sleep too.

We may be getting snow tonight, and even though it's only delaying the inevitable, I am crossing my fingers for another day off tomorrow. I have been called in to a school to do a consult this week and it's a political minefield and I don't want to deal with it. Okay, I am yawning so big my eyes are watering so I am signing off...

So, I stayed home with PPJ on Friday because she had been sick and thrown up on Thursday. Then I had today off, so it's been a quite a long weekend. Some of it was really good: playing in the snow with PPJ, playing lots of games with PPJ, watching Interstella 5555 with my husband and sister, watching lots of shows (Castle, Dr Who, Alcatraz).
On the bad side, the text I got from my co-worker really ruined my Friday night. Also, on Saturday I was still feeling kind of bad about the whole thing and kept getting into stupid fights with my husband about things that I knew I should just shut up about.
Anyway, I've spent all day evening on a stupid assignment about school law. Now I'm going to finish watching this episode of Castle while drinking a glass of wine and go to sleep.

I took a personal day today to try to relax and I was mildly successful. I went out and had coffee, ate sushi, and read a romance novel. I really can't shake the kind of bad mood I've been in lately though. I want to be able to tell myself to get over it and have it work, but it just doesn't. I am used to being really hardcore and just not letting things bother me, so it's even more annoying than just being in a crap frame of mind because I have the idea that I shouldn't ever be in one anyway. Which probably isn't emotionally healthy, but that's not anything I've ever claimed to be.

Yesterday I did finish a bunch of assignments so I am caught up in one class and ahead in the other. I also got some computer speakers for my laptop, so now I can listen to music without headphones (My laptop is so cheap that music sounds like it's coming out of a tincan through a time machine if you use the speakers.) I haven been enjoying making Spotify playlists for some of my old friends; I used to spend all my time and money in high school making people mixed tapes. Nostalgia!

There was something else I was going to mention, but whatever it is I am majorly spacing it and have been staring at the screen for quite awhile trying to think of it... giving up now. I will probably lay down and remember it as I fall asleep.

It's really cold here, and the low tonight is supposed to be 13 degrees, windchill even worse. Glad I don't have to go anywhere tonight. I did run out to the grocery store a little while ago and that was bad enough.

Other than that, running to the library, and changing my bed spread because I'm 95% sure my cat peed on it, I have just been hanging out in the bed with PPJ all day. What have I been doing? I signed up for the free month of Spotify earlier this week so I have been listening to lots of music that I've been too lazy/poor to add to my collection. I think I may have trouble cancelling at the end of the membership. I tried to play a hidden object game I started awhile ago, but it's not really that great, so now I'm feeling stuck because starting a new game without finishing it would make me feel anxious, but I don't actually want to play it. I watched the most recent episode of Hoarders online. I also read this frightening article about how people have parasites in their brains.

Anyway, now I can't decide what's next on my list. Definitely not housework or homework, I refuse to do any of that today. I think I need to eat something else because I have a headache. Too much coffee? Too little? Who knows. I might watch this week's Alcatraz. I also have a bunch of other crap on my hulu queue. Speaking of which, I have some House on there and was sad to hear that this will be the last season. I though that it was actually picking back up and I was enjoying it again. Oh well.

My sister bathed PPJ and now she is running circuits around the king size bed in her fresh PJ's. It's cute but also really annoying. Which kind of applies to her in a global sense too.

I had a lot of social obligations over the past weekend, so I was already fried before I even walked into work this morning, on a few hours of sleep. Then, in trying to discover why I hadn't gotten a financial aid refund from school, I found that what they told me they would give me is incorrect--- it was based on "full time" status, despite the fact that I have never, at any time in the course of getting one and now another master's degree, been a full time graduate student. So now I am just hoping they will still give me enough to cover tuition, but I had been looking forward to getting a refund too, so that sucked.

Nice evening just hanging out with PPJ. I think I am turning into my dad though. He used to sit around and drink beer and listen to old music when I was little. Which is pretty much what I do now. Ouch.

Ok, fate read my last entry because today sucked. My coffee maker failed, I had to run around between 3 towns and 2 meetings before 9:30AM, coffee shop failed my order and it exploded on me, got a huge headache from all this, back to another town/school and then went on a home visit to Sketch City where the dirty apartment and dog pushed me over the edge into sick headache nausea. I actually picked PPJ up from school a little early and came straight home and showered because I thought I was going to vomit. Now I am just laying in bed waiting for the Excedrin to kick in. Ugh!

A friend of mine is trying to draw me into some work-related drama, and it's making me emotionally drained and also think a lot less of her. Otherwise, a pretty unremarkable day; did a lot of paperwork and spent a lot of time getting my sister to and from university (she doesn't drive). I managed to get two assignments that were due today scraped together, and wasted way too much time playing Hidden Chronicle on facebook and listening to Barry Adamson's new album.

Speaking of sisters, here's an odd story. Last week, my other sister had a day off from work and flowers were delivered for her boyfriend, who lives with her. She called him to ask if he knew what they were, and he had no idea, so he told her to open the card. The card simply read "HAPPY BIRTHDAY. LOVE" and then had his name and cell number, only one digit was wrong. He called the florist to ask about it, and they told him it was an order that had been placed online and then just sent to them as a local business to fulfill it, so they had no info. He called a guy whom he went to college with that has the same name, thinking that it might be for him, as that type of thing happens frequently, especially because their last name isn't that common, but it wasn't his birthday either (I should point out my sister's boyfriend's birthday is in Oct). So we wrote it off as a weird footnote until today...

When he found out someone had been using his credit card fraudulently, including charging him for the flowers randomly sent to him! I think that's a little crazy. I've had some fraudulent charges before, but the effort to go out of your way and do something just to screw with the other person that gets you no money seems kind of disturbing to me. They also apparently opened like five Netflix accounts. Bizarre!

And to end, I'm going to end with this youtube link because I sent it to rosehiptea yesterday and now I can't get the jingle from it out of my head.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nTVj5lIkxp4

I had an extremely long day at work which was filled with the worst of both worlds: students AND adults acting stupid. Oh, well. Then, I didn't realize that I had online class again tonight, so I was bummed out. We can skip two, but I didn't want to start doing that so early, in case later there's more legitimate reasons I need to not attend. Once that was done, I also had to give my sister a ride home. She is a college student and lives with me, but she doesn't drive. Anyway, I am pretty fried and keep thinking about how I have a lot to do tomorrow, and then I also have a workshop all day Saturday. I just shouldn't worry about it because it doesn't help, but you know how it is; it's easier to tell yourself that then it is to do it. I think I am just going to get my trusty bag of brussels sprouts and lay down and watch Golden Girls.

Speaking of which, brussels sprouts is really hard for me to spell. Is that even right?

Spent almost three hours at the dentist this morning getting a temporary crown. It didn't really hurt, but my jaw isn't happy about having my mouth open so much. That kind of threw my whole day off, since I hate changes in routine and also drank no coffee.

Almost everyone I work with is getting on my nerves, which leads me to believe that I must have a poor attitude or something, since the chances of that seem higher than the chances that everyone else became an ass at the same time. Also, I had a fifth grader tell me today that I'm pretty emo. Ouch.

I started watching Series Six of Doctor Who yesterday. I like it, but for some reason I find new Who depressing (maybe that's why I'm emo?). I don't think I've ever like, teared up over the Third Doctor. I think, to a certain extent, it's not really entirely me, because emo drama is kind of how New Who rolls, but I don't want to be sad thinking about a show. That defeats the purpose of leisure time to me.

Otherwise, nothing much of interest has happened lately. Well, that's a lie; I've been having back problems that suck, but appear to be resolving. The other thing is that I got my advance download of Barry Adamson's new album, I Will Set You Free. So far I like it. It feels kind of 90's to me in a weird way that I can't explain. I don't think I will love it as a whole album-entity the way I love Back to the Cat, although my favorite single Adamson songs are not on that album.

And I can guarantee that nobody will really care, because I have never met in 16 years anyone who like Barry Adamson. (sad face)

I'm totally not going to talk about work and talk about the opening of Alcatraz instead. I'm gonna cut just in case someone don't wanna be spoiled.

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